Alysia Caitlin Sinclair!

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY

XX BABY GIRL XX

BABY GIRL YOU ARE NEARLY TWO, HOW DID THAT HAPPEN? WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE.. I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYONE CAN IMAGINE YOUR MY PRECIOUS BABY GIRL. AND YOUR GOING TO GET SO MANY BALLOONS FOR YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS TO CATCH IN HEAVEN!!!FOR YOUR ANGEL PARTY. YOUR SISTERS ARE GROWING BIG MADISON TALKS ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME AND KYRAH LOVES LOOKING AT YOUR PHOTOS SHECALLS YOU BEBE.. WE ALL MISS YOU VERY MUCH AND WISH YOU WERE WITH US BUT YOU MADE KYRAHS LIFE POSSIBLE.

WE LOVE YOU PRINCESS AND YOU HAVE THE BEST BIRTHDAY POSSIBLE WE WILL MAKE YOUR PARTY DOWN HERE AS SPECIAL AS WE CAN WITHOUT OUR LITTLE ANGEL!!

LOVE MUMMY, MADISON, KYRAH

Alysia:
 A perfect Angel who flew to our earth,
Who's wings disappeared at the time of her birth.
One look in her eyes and we were never the same,
She's part of our lives, that gift will never change.
She's part of our hearts, we'll forget you never.
Alysia, you're an Angel, we'll love you forever.
xxx

Alysia
You was only with us for a while
but you still managed to make us smile
the pain we feel will never go
because we will never see you grow
one whole year has past us by
and still we feel the need to cry
you just looked like a baby doll
but God found the need to take your soul
love you always
nanny lynn
xxx

ALYSIA
I have a special daughter
one that lives high up in the sky
who comes out in the stars at night
and twinkles brightly away.

I see you in my dreams at night
when i close my eye's,
you left mummy with out a single
sound but you are telling me that
your alright,
that your not scared its safe up
here.in the special light.

so when i need you near me all i have
to do is close my eyes,
and then you appear your little face
so pretty and so clear.

It has been one long hard year
but now its time for you to grow
big into a little tot your
not a baby anymore.
both your sisters love you your so
special to us all, we talk to you
and send love to you with everything
we do.

so on the day of your birthday we will
celebrate with you, sending you and
your friends lots of messages on pink
party balloons.

I will miss you more everyday that i'm
without you.
I love you so much my little princess
sending you a million kisses up to
heavens gates.
love mummy
XxX

thank you to all the awesome pictures people have left for my wee alysia i really appreciate it knowing that my daughter is allways being thorght of thank you v v much xx

I Am Not There

Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awake in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush,
Of quiet birds circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at grave and cry.
I am not there.
I did not die

THERE IS NO FOOT TOO SMALL 

THAT IT CANNOT LEAVE AN  IMPRINT 

IN THIS WORLD













SPECIAL ANGEL IN HEAVEN

There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted her
but where God wanted her to be.

She was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though she is in Heaven
she isn't very far.

She touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send her all my love.

Please Dont Cry

Please dont sit round my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
that makes you think that I would leave?
I'm with you mum, so please dont grieve.
Our bond on earth was much too strong,
Our love will carry on and on...
I'm with you as you go to bed,
I plant sweet kisses on your head.
I'm in the wind, the rain, the snow,
I'm with you everywhere you go.
Please don't cry mummy, can't you see?
I'm safe my spirit soars, I'm free.

I wrote you a few letters when i was pregnant
 here is a letter when i found 
               out i was pregnant with you.                  

10th April 2006

hey my new wee angel


Mummy found out she was pregnant today,
i was very excited but a bit sceared. i told Anthony first,
 he is your daddy he was very excited about
 you as well, then i told your big sister madison.

Madison is going to be your big sister,
 she will be a great big sister to you wee buba,
 madison has lots of love to give you.

Nanny in adelade was excited to but did reply
 "if its a boy i can buy it some port power clothes" silly nanny.

i cant wait to see you on your scan next week, 
see your little hands and toes i am so excted ...
 you are going to be so loved my wee angel.

lots of love mummy, daddy and madison xxx

ps .. go eat some yummy food and grow really big
 and strong so you can come and join us in our world...

and your only 6 weeks old

 for you already lil white one

hopefully in the next couple of weeks we will see our midwife 
I cant wait for you to grow some more so
mummy can hear your heartbeat
at the moment you are making mummy be sick a lot
but it will be all worth it when i see you my
 gorgeous wee angel ... your little hands and feet and ya little smile.
I keep wondering if you are going to be a boy
or a girl guess we will have to wait to find out
love Mummy xxx

THURSDAY, JUNE 8TH 2006

Hey sweetheart mummy here you are now 10 weeks,
mummy heard your little heartbeat today at the doctors.
it was amazing it made me cry it made you so real.
You are going to be so loved sweetheart, 
mummy, daddy and your big sister madison
 will make sure of that.
i love you sweetheart xxxx
lots love mummy xoxo

Tuesday 20th June 2006

midwife came today heard your wee heart beat again, 
loud and clear your heart was beating at 150 beats, 
wow fast like your sister i think you are going to
 be a wee girl. Auntie Natalie and your
 sister Madison were here to hear you
love mummy xxxx

Monday the 7th of august

 mummy had a scan everything seemed fine untill 
the call from my midwife came in that afternoon
 "they had found a 5.2mm skin fold "we need
 you to come into the clinic at 9am tomorrow"! 
said the midwife and thats where it all begain ...
 i didnt get to write a letter for this as this
 is when things started going wrong i was really sad.

Tuesday the 8/8 2006

9am went to see midwife and doctor at Queen Mary anti natal clinic,
 they explained to me what this nuro fold could be
 and what we could do about it i decided to
 go ahead with a amnio at 19wk 1day pregnant.
unknowing this turned out to be the worse 
decision of my life. the first 2 days after the amnio little Alysia
 was moving more than she used too. 
but that slowed down so saw my doctor 
all was well and the same the next day
 i saw my midwife and baby was fine.

Saturday the 12th 2006 -
back pain

Sunday the 13th 2006 (morning) -
midwife came out Alysia was fine

Sunday the 13th 2006 
-(night at Queen Mary hospital) - 
saw midwife said that everything was fine - SENT HOME!!

Monday the 14th 2006 (morning) -
rang midwife said all was fine

monday the 14th 2006 (afternoon)

- went to a&e because no one believed i was in labour ...
 went there at 1:52pm and didn't get seen untill 3:15pm
 and i had Alysia in the a&e department at 4pm
 she was born alive with movements for a min 
or so then she had 1-2 breaths every 5 mins
 and passed away 26 minutes later
 i held you all this time sweetheart.

I miss you and i want you back so bad,
 but there must have bigger dreams 4 you my wee angel.
I know ill never get to hold you again in
 this life but i am hopefull i will see you again ...
 and see you and your little smile.
you go find the light and play with all your
 little angel friends and look over Me,
 Daddy and Madison and we will never forget you.
love allways x0x0x0x0x

              

LITTLE FOOTPRINTs

                                        But what an imprint
                           your footprints have left
                                  upon our hearts.

                               - Dorothy Ferguson

                                                    

LIFE IS LIKE A BUTTERFLY

Life is like a butterfly

MY LAST LETTER THAT I WROTE TO YOU
THAT WAS READ AT YOUR SERVICE


I have to say goodbye
With only a brief hello
this is the sadest thing i have ever done,
How this is fair ill never know,
for 20 short weeks you grew and grew,


On August the 14th 2006 you were born,
just so perfect but far to soon.
There was nothing mummy could do
I Miss you so much, all of your little kicks.

I never knew i wanted you so bad
untill you were gone.
i just wish you back into my tummy,
thats where you belong
For 20 more weeks you should have grown.

I named you Alysia Caitlin Sinclair the next day,
the perfect name for my perfect wee girl.
i will NEVER forget you hunny.

REST IN PEICE
LOTS OF LOVE AND KISSES MUMMY XOXOX


HERE IS A PHOTO OF YOU BEFORE THE MORNING 
BEFORE YOUR SERVICE THE LAST PHOTO MUMMY GOT OF YOU!

                                  

      

Fly, fly little wing

Fly away, the time is right
Go now, find the light.


Monday 11th of September 2006

Hello my wee angel i have been thinking about you
 alot today as you are a month old today.
i think of you every minute of every day 
but today just seems way worse.
i know you are safe and at piece where you

 are but i just cant help wondering where that place is?
i hope you have made lots of wee angel friends 
way up above. but i hope you can look down
 on mummy,daddy and ya big sis madie and
 smile and know we are happy.

we all miss you so much and wish you were 
here and i will never stop thinking about you no matter what!
i hope you know how much i love you ...
 like i told you when you were in my tummy 
that your going to be the most loved litlle button

 around. can you remember me talking to you before
 you left i read you all the letters that were
 for you when you grew big ... you were ment
 to get them when you were 21 so you knew how
 much i loved you right from the start ... 

but as it turned out you only got 3 letters 
there should have been many more.
i cant wait till i get to see you and hold you in
 my arms once more mabie in my dreams i will see you smile?
but just remember no matter where you are

 my angel we all love you very much and i will 
continue to write to you even if you dont know.
i hope you remember the song me and madie
 used to sing too you when it was sleepy time ( hush little baby )
madison got lots of kisses but its sad that she
 didnt get a sister she could grow up with.

i could see you 2 getting up in the morning and
 running around the house playing with all the
 toys that were here for you.
i know you can here me when i talk to you 
in the stars at night just one day let mummy
 have a sign so i know that you are allright.

i let you rest now sweetheart and ill talk to you very soon.
there are lots of kisses and cuddles from all of us to you.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxox
love you my sweet little angel
FLY FLY HIGH UP IN THE SKY
XXx

I am a tiny angel ...
I'm smaller than your thumb;
I live in people pockets,
That's where I have my fun.

don't suppose you've seen me,
I'm too tiny to detect;
Though I'm with you all the time,
I doubt we've ever met.

Before I was an Angel ...
I was a baby in your womb;
God, Himself, hand-picked me,
And gave me Angel power.

Now God has many Angels
That He trains in Angel pools;
We become His eyes, and ears, and hands ...
We become His special tools.

And because God is so busy,
With way too much to do;
He said that my assignment
Was to keep close watch on you.

Then He tucked me in your pocket,
Blessing you with Angel care;
Saying I must never leave you,
And I vowed to stay right there!

God sent me down to be with you,
to make your loving heart anew.

To help YOU look up and see
Both God and little me.

Mummy, I wish I could stay.
Just like I heard you pray.
But, all the angels did cry
when they told little me goodbye.

God didn't take me cause He's mad.
He didn't send me to make you sad.
But to give us both a chance to be
a love so precious .. don't you see?

Up here no trouble do I see
and the pretty angels sing to me.
The streets of gold is where I play
you'll come here too, mummy, someday.

Until the day you join me here,
I'll love you mummy, dear.
Each breeze you feel and see,
brings love and a kiss from me.

By Sandy Eakle 




ALYSIA
SDENDING BUTTERFLY KISSES
TO MY FAMILY
XOXOXOX


God's garden

God looked around His garden
and saw an empty space.
He looked down from Heaven
and saw your smiling face.

He put His arms around you
and whispered come to rest.
His garden must be beautiful,
He picks only the very best.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
but you did not go alone,
A part of us went with you,
the day God called you home.

Our thoughts are always with you,
a million times we've cried,
And if our love could have saved you,
You never would have died.

Author unknow

Dear Mother

Dear Mother, dry your tears today, you know I love you so.
It hurts me much to see you cry, oh mother, don't you know???????????????????????????
I'll never leave you all alone, I never left your heart,
God took me by the hand that day but said we'd never part.
He kept His promise to me, I visit all the time,
You are the sweetest mother an Angel here could find.
If I could write a letter, I'm sure you know I would
To let you know I'm safe from harm and Heaven is so good!
I'm here with many Angel, so many that you know!
Our family sends all their love to you on earth below.
We know one day we'll meet again when one day you come home,
We've saved a place for you dear mom and lead you up God's stairs,
'Til then dear mom, please carry on and dry those streaming tears.
~Dawn Glenton

SOME PEOPLE ONLY DEAM OF ANGELS
WE GOT TO HOLD ONE




FOREVER LOVED FOREVER MISSED
NEVER FORGOTTEN

You are 6 weeks old today!
Monday the 25th September 2006


hi my precious princess
it has been 6 weeks since you left us.
but it fells like years
i think about you every minute of everyday.
and everyday seems that little bit worse
like the gap where you were is getting bigger.
They say that the pain eases
but i think they lie my angel
because its not getting any better.
i hope your in a better place
and that that place is filled with love and happiness
and that you are being looked after
as well as what i would have
looked after you.
and you allways have your teddy from me
i saw the little pink bear and it was so sort and cuddly
just like you.
and knew you would need someone to keep you company.
 you got a teddy from robyn and the twins too
 so you just give them lots of hugs if you ever fell sad.
your my precious wee angel
and nobody will ever replace that.
people dont talk 2 me about
you anymore as if you were never here
 but me and daddy talk about you alot.
and we have photos of you every
where you are cathching up on madie
even know you were here for such a short time.

mummy picked some flowers and put them 
with your ashes yesterday.
and we are going to get a tree to plant for you
I think that you would havethis if you were anything like
 daddys 2 boys and madison.
they love 2 play outside.
i fell i cant live if living is without you
but i am staying strong for madie and you.

 i know i will see you again
i love you my sweet angel girl

xxxx
love mummy xxx

HEY MY SPECIAL WEE GIRL

    heres a picture of you with your new ballon 
that we got for you today at faiths 1st birthday party.
it is so cute just for you angel.
i hope you like it.
its nice and pink and girly just like you would have been
love you baby girl
love mummy
xoxoxoxo

03.10.06

My beautiful, peaceful, little one,
tiny, pure and mild.
You're much too good for our world my darling,
You're surely Gods own special child,
For you no pain or heartache, no badness to see or hear,
My perfect,beautiful baby, You've nothing left to fear.
And now my arms are empty, and for me 
alone I cry, when darkness closes in on me,
 I can only wonder - Why?
The precious time we spent together,
my deepest love to you I gave, and all those s
pecial moments, my mind will always save.
I thank you for being my little one and 
although we have had to part, wherever you are
 my darling in your arms you hold my heart.
God has gathered in our darling, placed
 our bud among the flowers,
taken back the child he lent us, 
to a much better home than ours.

    Heres some friends to keep you company love mummy

Angel
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