I made this site to rememer
my special wee Angel
Alysia Caitlin Sinclair
Who was born in New Zealand
on August 14th 2006,
weighing 12.4onz (355grams) and 26cm long
She was perfectly made
but born far too soon.
at 20 weeks
and passed that same day.
love you baby girl
6 years baby girl!
Can only imagine how beautiful you would be if your
sisters and brother are anything to go by!
Hope you have an amazing born day in heaven, we are
missing you down here!
Love ya princess
forever in my heart
You are nearly 5!
I have been finding this year really hard and i know you have been here to help me through it.
I look at your brothers and sisters and think what you might have been like, you would be on holidays now and starting school soon.
Its going to be a big day for me, and i miss you so bad alysia.
I love you more than words would ever describe your perfect, and gorgeous and i just sit sometimes and think what life would be like with you in it. but you leaving us has only made me stronger and determined to make other mums and childrens life easier and special.
Thank you for letting me be your mummy i couldnt have asked for a more beautiful daughter.
Mummy loves you soo soo much and one day when the time is right im going to give you te biggest longest hug and never let you go again.
Sweet dreams my precious wee princess
Hey mummys lil girl
I miss you so bad not a day of the past four years has gone by that i haven't thorght about you that i haven't said good night or glanced to see if the stars are out. in two weeks you would have been 4, your sisters talk about you lots and i hope lakyn and baby will talk about you aswell your part of our life forever... untill we are all together again xx
were going to send you some beautiful ballons soon madie says that you really love them
love you baby girl xx
happy birthday in heaven
your going to be a big sister again baby is due in dec 2010 :) keep him/her safe love you baby girl x
- Hey baby girl-
On the 15th of december 2011 you became a big sister once again!
A beautiful wee girl Breneka rose shes perfect and looks alot like you. you would have loved her and she would have loved you
I miss you so much i cant believe that this year you could have been starting school
sweet dreams xx
Alysia Caitlin Sinclair!
Beautiful Angel your nearly 3! we miss you more and more everyday.
love you so much baby girl
love mummy,madie,kyky and lakey!
happy birthday princess your a big 3year old!
ALYSIA MUMMY HAS SOME NEWS FOR YOU ON THE 18TH-FEB-09 WE WELCOMED A LITTLE BOY INTO OUR FAMILLY A LITTLE BROTHER 4 YOU TO WATCH OVER AND KEEP SAFE. HIS NAME IS LAKYN ALEXANDER. BUT YOU KNOW THAT BECAUSE YOU WERE THERE KEEPING US SAFE.
WE ALL LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU PRINCESS.
LOVE MUMMY, MADISON, KYRAH AND LAKYN
your going to be a big sister again,
look after us and keep us safe.
your wee brother or sister will be here
in febuary 2009 :)
we all miss you so so much!
Your our little PRINCESS
and allways will be
love you so much baby girl
HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY
XX BABY GIRL XX
BABY GIRL YOU ARE NEARLY TWO, HOW DID THAT HAPPEN? WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE.. I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYONE CAN IMAGINE YOUR MY PRECIOUS BABY GIRL. AND YOUR GOING TO GET SO MANY BALLOONS FOR YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS TO CATCH IN HEAVEN!!!FOR YOUR ANGEL PARTY. YOUR SISTERS ARE GROWING BIG MADISON TALKS ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME AND KYRAH LOVES LOOKING AT YOUR PHOTOS SHECALLS YOU BEBE.. WE ALL MISS YOU VERY MUCH AND WISH YOU WERE WITH US BUT YOU MADE KYRAHS LIFE POSSIBLE.
WE LOVE YOU PRINCESS AND YOU HAVE THE BEST BIRTHDAY POSSIBLE WE WILL MAKE YOUR PARTY DOWN HERE AS SPECIAL AS WE CAN WITHOUT OUR LITTLE ANGEL!!
LOVE MUMMY, MADISON, KYRAH
A perfect Angel who flew to our earth,
Who's wings disappeared at the time of her birth.
One look in her eyes and we were never the same,
She's part of our lives, that gift will never change.
She's part of our hearts, we'll forget you never.
Alysia, you're an Angel, we'll love you forever.
You was only with us for a while
but you still managed to make us smile
the pain we feel will never go
because we will never see you grow
one whole year has past us by
and still we feel the need to cry
you just looked like a baby doll
but God found the need to take your soul
love you always
I have a special daughter
one that lives high up in the sky
who comes out in the stars at night
and twinkles brightly away.
I see you in my dreams at night
when i close my eye's,
you left mummy with out a single
sound but you are telling me that
that your not scared its safe up
here.in the special light.
so when i need you near me all i have
to do is close my eyes,
and then you appear your little face
so pretty and so clear.
It has been one long hard year
but now its time for you to grow
big into a little tot your
not a baby anymore.
both your sisters love you your so
special to us all, we talk to you
and send love to you with everything
so on the day of your birthday we will
celebrate with you, sending you and
your friends lots of messages on pink
I will miss you more everyday that i'm
I love you so much my little princess
sending you a million kisses up to
thank you to all the awesome pictures people have left for my wee alysia i really appreciate it knowing that my daughter is allways being thorght of thank you v v much xx
I Am Not There
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awake in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush,
Of quiet birds circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at grave and cry.
I am not there.
I did not die
"God broke our hearts to prove that he only takes the best."
THERE IS NO FOOT TOO SMALL
THAT IT CANNOT LEAVE AN IMPRINT
IN THIS WORLD
SPECIAL ANGEL IN HEAVEN
There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted her
but where God wanted her to be.
She was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though she is in Heaven
she isn't very far.
She touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
if the end I only knew.
So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send her all my love.
Please Dont Cry
Please dont sit round my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
that makes you think that I would leave?
I'm with you mum, so please dont grieve.
Our bond on earth was much too strong,
Our love will carry on and on...
I'm with you as you go to bed,
I plant sweet kisses on your head.
I'm in the wind, the rain, the snow,
I'm with you everywhere you go.
Please don't cry mummy, can't you see?
I'm safe my spirit soars, I'm free.
I LOVE MY MUMMY!
I wrote you a few letters when i was pregnant
here is a letter when i found
out i was pregnant with you. 10th April 2006
hey my new wee angel
Mummy found out she was pregnant today,
i was very excited but a bit sceared. i told Anthony first,
he is your daddy he was very excited about
you as well, then i told your big sister madison.
Madison is going to be your big sister,
she will be a great big sister to you wee buba,
madison has lots of love to give you.
Nanny in adelade was excited to but did reply
"if its a boy i can buy it some port power clothes" silly nanny.
i cant wait to see you on your scan next week,
see your little hands and toes i am so excted ...
you are going to be so loved my wee angel.
lots of love mummy, daddy and madison xxx
ps .. go eat some yummy food and grow really big
and strong so you can come and join us in our world...
My second letter was after my very first scan
the very first time i saw my wee angel
Tuesday 2nd May 2006
To my wee button
Mummy had her very first scan today,
you were very very little
only 2cm big
But you are growing arms and legs
and your only 6 weeks old
Only 34 weeks Utill mummy and daddy and your
sister Madison get to meet you and hold you in our arms.
We are excited & getting some cute little clothes
for you already lil white one
hopefully in the next couple of weeks we will see our midwife I cant wait for you to grow some more somummy can hear your heartbeatat the moment you are making mummy be sick a lotbut it will be all worth it when i see you my gorgeous wee angel ... your little hands and feet and ya little smile.I keep wondering if you are going to be a boyor a girl guess we will have to wait to find outlove Mummy xxx
THURSDAY, JUNE 8TH 2006
Hey sweetheart mummy here you are now 10 weeks,
mummy heard your little heartbeat today at the doctors.
it was amazing it made me cry it made you so real.
You are going to be so loved sweetheart,
mummy, daddy and your big sister madison
will make sure of that.
i love you sweetheart xxxx
lots love mummy xoxo
Tuesday 20th June 2006
midwife came today heard your wee heart beat again,
loud and clear your heart was beating at 150 beats,
wow fast like your sister i think you are going to
be a wee girl. Auntie Natalie and your
sister Madison were here to hear you
love mummy xxxx
Monday the 7th of august
mummy had a scan everything seemed fine untill
the call from my midwife came in that afternoon
"they had found a 5.2mm skin fold "we need
you to come into the clinic at 9am tomorrow"!
said the midwife and thats where it all begain ...
i didnt get to write a letter for this as this
is when things started going wrong i was really sad.
Tuesday the 8/8 2006
9am went to see midwife and doctor at Queen Mary anti natal clinic,
they explained to me what this nuro fold could be
and what we could do about it i decided to
go ahead with a amnio at 19wk 1day pregnant.
unknowing this turned out to be the worse
decision of my life. the first 2 days after the amnio little Alysia
was moving more than she used too.
but that slowed down so saw my doctor
all was well and the same the next day
i saw my midwife and baby was fine.
Saturday the 12th 2006 -
Sunday the 13th 2006 (morning) -
midwife came out Alysia was fine
Sunday the 13th 2006
-(night at Queen Mary hospital) -
saw midwife said that everything was fine - SENT HOME!!
Monday the 14th 2006 (morning) -
rang midwife said all was fine
monday the 14th 2006 (afternoon)
- went to a&e because no one believed i was in labour ...
went there at 1:52pm and didn't get seen untill 3:15pm
and i had Alysia in the a&e department at 4pm
she was born alive with movements for a min
or so then she had 1-2 breaths every 5 mins
and passed away 26 minutes later
i held you all this time sweetheart.
I miss you and i want you back so bad,
but there must have bigger dreams 4 you my wee angel.
I know ill never get to hold you again in
this life but i am hopefull i will see you again ...
and see you and your little smile.
you go find the light and play with all your
little angel friends and look over Me,
Daddy and Madison and we will never forget you.
love allways x0x0x0x0x
How very softly
you tiptoed into our world Almost silenty
only a moment you stayed
But what an imprint
your footprints have left
upon our hearts.
- Dorothy Ferguson
LIFE IS LIKE A BUTTERFLY
Life is like a butterfly
One never knows why
It touches your cheek, then says,
Fragile and sweet, like blooming flowers
Life's loves and trials last only the
That they touch your heart, then say,
Life is like a butterfly.
MY LAST LETTER THAT I WROTE TO YOU
THAT WAS READ AT YOUR SERVICE
I have to say goodbye
With only a brief hello
this is the sadest thing i have ever done,
How this is fair ill never know,
for 20 short weeks you grew and grew,
On August the 14th 2006 you were born,
just so perfect but far to soon.
There was nothing mummy could do
I Miss you so much, all of your little kicks.
I never knew i wanted you so bad
untill you were gone.
i just wish you back into my tummy,
thats where you belong
For 20 more weeks you should have grown.
I named you Alysia Caitlin Sinclair the next day,
the perfect name for my perfect wee girl.
i will NEVER forget you hunny.
REST IN PEICE
LOTS OF LOVE AND KISSES MUMMY XOXOX
HERE IS A PHOTO OF YOU BEFORE THE MORNING
BEFORE YOUR SERVICE THE LAST PHOTO MUMMY GOT OF YOU!
Fly, fly little wing
Fly where only angels sings
Fly away, the time is right
Go now, find the light.
Monday 11th of September 2006
Hello my wee angel i have been thinking about you
alot today as you are a month old today.
i think of you every minute of every day
but today just seems way worse.
i know you are safe and at piece where you
are but i just cant help wondering where that place is?
i hope you have made lots of wee angel friends
way up above. but i hope you can look down
on mummy,daddy and ya big sis madie and
smile and know we are happy.
we all miss you so much and wish you were
here and i will never stop thinking about you no matter what!
i hope you know how much i love you ...
like i told you when you were in my tummy
that your going to be the most loved litlle button
around. can you remember me talking to you before
you left i read you all the letters that were
for you when you grew big ... you were ment
to get them when you were 21 so you knew how
much i loved you right from the start ...
but as it turned out you only got 3 letters
there should have been many more.
i cant wait till i get to see you and hold you in
my arms once more mabie in my dreams i will see you smile?
but just remember no matter where you are
my angel we all love you very much and i will
continue to write to you even if you dont know.
i hope you remember the song me and madie
used to sing too you when it was sleepy time ( hush little baby )
madison got lots of kisses but its sad that she
didnt get a sister she could grow up with.
i could see you 2 getting up in the morning and
running around the house playing with all the
toys that were here for you.
i know you can here me when i talk to you
in the stars at night just one day let mummy
have a sign so i know that you are allright.
i let you rest now sweetheart and ill talk to you very soon.
there are lots of kisses and cuddles from all of us to you.
love you my sweet little angel
FLY FLY HIGH UP IN THE SKY
I am a tiny angel ...
I'm smaller than your thumb;
I live in people pockets,
That's where I have my fun.
don't suppose you've seen me,
I'm too tiny to detect;
Though I'm with you all the time,
I doubt we've ever met.
Before I was an Angel ...
I was a baby in your womb;
God, Himself, hand-picked me,
And gave me Angel power.
Now God has many Angels
That He trains in Angel pools;
We become His eyes, and ears, and hands ...
We become His special tools.
And because God is so busy,
With way too much to do;
He said that my assignment
Was to keep close watch on you.
Then He tucked me in your pocket,
Blessing you with Angel care;
Saying I must never leave you,
And I vowed to stay right there!
A THOUSAND WORDS COULD NOT BRING YOU BACK,
I KNOW BECAUSE I HAVE TRIED!
A THOUSAND TEARS COULD NOT BRING YOU BACK,
I KNOW BECAUSE I HAVE CRIED!
COME BACK ANGEL
EVEN IF ITS IN MY DREAMS
LOVE YOU ALWAYS XOXOXO
Sorry I didn't get to stay.
To laugh and run and play.
To be there by your side
I'm sorry that I had to die.
God sent me down to be with you,
to make your loving heart anew.To help YOU look up and see
Both God and little me.
Mummy, I wish I could stay.
Just like I heard you pray.
But, all the angels did cry
when they told little me goodbye.
God didn't take me cause He's mad.
He didn't send me to make you sad.
But to give us both a chance to be
a love so precious .. don't you see?
Up here no trouble do I see
and the pretty angels sing to me.
The streets of gold is where I play
you'll come here too, mummy, someday.
Until the day you join me here,
I'll love you mummy, dear.
Each breeze you feel and see,
brings love and a kiss from me.
By Sandy Eakle
SDENDING BUTTERFLY KISSES
TO MY FAMILY
God looked around His garden
and saw an empty space.
He looked down from Heaven
and saw your smiling face.
He put His arms around you
and whispered come to rest.
His garden must be beautiful,
He picks only the very best.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
but you did not go alone,
A part of us went with you,
the day God called you home.
Our thoughts are always with you,
a million times we've cried,
And if our love could have saved you,
You never would have died.
Dear Mother, dry your tears today, you know I love you so.
It hurts me much to see you cry, oh mother, don't you know???????????????????????????
I'll never leave you all alone, I never left your heart,
God took me by the hand that day but said we'd never part.
He kept His promise to me, I visit all the time,
You are the sweetest mother an Angel here could find.
If I could write a letter, I'm sure you know I would
To let you know I'm safe from harm and Heaven is so good!
I'm here with many Angel, so many that you know!
Our family sends all their love to you on earth below.
We know one day we'll meet again when one day you come home,
We've saved a place for you dear mom and lead you up God's stairs,
'Til then dear mom, please carry on and dry those streaming tears.
SOME PEOPLE ONLY DEAM OF ANGELS
WE GOT TO HOLD ONE
FOREVER LOVED FOREVER MISSED
You are 6 weeks old today!
Monday the 25th September 2006
hi my precious princess
it has been 6 weeks since you left us.
but it fells like years
i think about you every minute of everyday.
and everyday seems that little bit worse
like the gap where you were is getting bigger.
They say that the pain eases
but i think they lie my angel
because its not getting any better.
i hope your in a better place
and that that place is filled with love and happiness
and that you are being looked after
as well as what i would have
looked after you.
and you allways have your teddy from me
i saw the little pink bear and it was so sort and cuddly
just like you.
and knew you would need someone to keep you company.
you got a teddy from robyn and the twins too
so you just give them lots of hugs if you ever fell sad.
your my precious wee angel
and nobody will ever replace that.
people dont talk 2 me about
you anymore as if you were never here
but me and daddy talk about you alot.
and we have photos of you every
where you are cathching up on madie
even know you were here for such a short time.
mummy picked some flowers and put them
with your ashes yesterday.
and we are going to get a tree to plant for you
I think that you would havethis if you were anything like
daddys 2 boys and madison.
they love 2 play outside.
i fell i cant live if living is without you
but i am staying strong for madie and you.
i know i will see you again
i love you my sweet angel girl
love mummy xxx
HEY MY SPECIAL WEE GIRL
heres a picture of you with your new ballon
that we got for you today at faiths 1st birthday party.
it is so cute just for you angel.
i hope you like it.
its nice and pink and girly just like you would have been
love you baby girl
LOVE YOU BABY GIRL
hey baby girl just letting you know how
much we all love you and miss you so
much here is a special little angel for you.
love you xoxo
My beautiful, peaceful, little one,
tiny, pure and mild.
You're much too good for our world my darling,
You're surely Gods own special child,
For you no pain or heartache, no badness to see or hear,
My perfect,beautiful baby, You've nothing left to fear.
And now my arms are empty, and for me
alone I cry, when darkness closes in on me,
I can only wonder - Why?
The precious time we spent together,
my deepest love to you I gave, and all those s
pecial moments, my mind will always save.
I thank you for being my little one and
although we have had to part, wherever you are
my darling in your arms you hold my heart.
God has gathered in our darling, placed
our bud among the flowers,
taken back the child he lent us,
to a much better home than ours.
Heres some friends to keep you company love mummy
Heres another friend for you wee Alysia love you sweetie xoxo
Saw this and thought of you baby girl xox
Alysia i am writting you this letter to let you know how
Much i love you and miss you.
i also wanted you to know that you are going to be
a BIG SISTER.
I know it hasent been long since you left but mummy
having another baby dosen't mean that i dont love
You are going to be a great big sister you can look
down and protect your little brother or sister and keep him
or her safe from the world.
Your my special wee angel princess and i love you so so
much and that will never change.
Love you baby girl
Lots Love and Kisses
Your now a big sister
I know now that you will
keep us all safe.
love you so much
Mummys little princess
xxxxHeres a picture that auntie rebecca drew
Cutest little angel in heaven xox"My Parents are Survivors"
My parents are survivors, or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear them crying at night, when all others are in bed.
I watch them lay awake at night, and go to hold hands.
They do not know I'm with them, to help them understand.
But like the sands on the beach, that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving parents, who think of me each day.
They wear a smile for others...a smile of disguise!
Through Heaven's door I see them...tears flowing from their eyes.
My parents try to cope with death, to keep my memory alive.
Anyone who truly knows them, knows it is their way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving parents, through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell them that angels protect me forevermore.
I know that does not help them, or ease the burden that they bear.
If you get a chance...go visit them...and show them that you care.
hey baby girl
miss you so so much.
more and more everyday.
im just adding you some more pretty
things to your site.
ill get you another balloon this week.
love you so much.
hey baby girl
look at all your teddy's
ready for your birthday party
love you my lil princess
LOVE YOU BABY GIRL
HERES SOME NEW PHOTOS FOR YOU
heres a new photo of your sisters i know you watch over them and me but i thorght it might be nice 4 you 2 have a photo of them we love you baby girl and we will never stop thinking about you and i know some day in years to come i will be holding you again once more! but that time will be when i am needed i love you miss alysia. come to madisons birthday party im sure she would love you there shes going to be 3 this year and she talks about you did you see her wen i did the video tape and she was saying this is alysias teddy shes my sister she has died but shes in heaven thats why she cant come in the car with us a mum because she flys not drives i thorght it was so lovely.
well baby girl the nights are starting 2 get cold so get ya rain coat and gummys on and jump in them puddles! and snuggle up nice and warm atnight with the other angels on them warm fluffy clouds
sending you a million kisses now and allways
my little princess.
hello baby girl i am missing you terribly
your my little angel snd i love you so much your
going to be two soon and mummys going to have to face yet another year not seeing you grow up.
you should be here with your familly. i bet
your loveing it up there in heaven with
grandma mc's puddings hehehe and knitted
singlets. she will be taking good care of you
its getting colder these days baby girl so snuggle up nice and warm.
i love you princess sending you
unlimited kisses and huggles
Here is a beautiful photo of your sisters and brother.
love you princess so so much wish you could have been in the photo xxxx
PLEASE LIGHT A CANDLE
SO WE KNOW YOU
I LOVE YOU
MY SPECIAL WEE